Sometimes, I feel like I am floating in the peaceful abyss of the ocean. And while it may be beautiful and peaceful, it is also sometimes frustrating wanting to get up and out and breathe in new air. Or to see the shining light of a future goal, but not be able to quite see what it is, nor how to grasp it.
After a talk with my mom online about some of my dreams and plans, she promptly got off chat, saying she needed to go to the library. She was to be flying out in the morning to join me on my visit in California. When she and my sister arrived at the hotel, mom pulled out her library treasure. She had brought me the book, A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller, and pointed me to one particular chapter.
Moms know best! Within a page of this chapter, I set the book aside and opened up my computer.
“Don’t you want to read that chapter?” she asked, looking perhaps a little disappointed that I’d so quickly set aside her book.
“I do, mom! But in this first page, he said so many things that… – I have to record them somewhere before you take the book back to the library!”
So here I am, recording the parts that just ring so truthfully and fully to my ears and my heart.
“And I found myself wanting even better stories. And that’s the thing you’ll realize when you organize your life into the structure of story. You’ll get a taste for one story and then want another, and then another, and the stories will build until you’re living a kind of epic of risk and reward, and the whole things will be molding you into the actual character whose roles you’ve been playing. And once you live a good story, you get a taste for a kind of meaning in life, and you can’t go back to being normal; you can’t go back to meaningless scenes stitched together by the forgettable thread of wasted time.”
“The beauty of the inlet was nearly that of Peru, and I wondered at all this exposition God had created, as though it were an invitation to an epic so grand it might match the scenery. The mountains themselves call us into greater stories, I thought.”
What stories in life are calling to me? What stories am I writing in my day to day existence?
“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.”
–Henry David Thoreau
“…because a life without meaning, without drive or focus, without dreams or goals, isn’t a life worth living.”
― Chris Colfer, Struck By Lightning: The Carson Phillips Journal
Have goals. Even an unmet goal is a light in your life. It gives you something to strive for, something to make you smile, to fill your passions. Even if your goal is to keep doing what you’re doing because you love it, that too, is a simplistic beauty.
We have actually done this a few times, now. The first time, the ocean was still and gentle. Which made for a… well… BORING experience! So we waited for a weekend with some wind, and went again! …and I couldn’t keep my balance enough to stand on the stupid board for more than a few seconds! haha!
But it was still enjoyable, and definitely not so boring! I look forward to finding a time where it’s a LITTLE choppy, and I can try again